Help Please...

Hey all.

I would love to here from someone who has any ideas/rituals/spells or anything to help clear my mind and get me feeling back to normal.

You see I haven't really felt like myself lately. I feel really sesitive and let little things get to me and I get really stressed out easily. Its starting to interfere with my relationships and work also, and I've just had enough.

I've tried a bit of meditating but it didnt really work.

Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks, Summer

12 reasons why we should all want to be children again

The ability to be amused by the simplest things, like the drops of rain running down the car window.

The ability to learn so much, and the desire to learn everything.

Being able to ask any question, without the fear of sounding stupid or looking like an idiot.

Getting agry with people for the pettiest things, and then continuing to be "best friends" with that same person just minutes later.

The excitment during the leading up to, and the day of, events that now seem so mundane, almost a hassle. Like birthdays and christmas.

The security of your fathers arms and the warmth of your mothers.

Getting away with running around the yard naked, or at least with just underwear on.

Being naked with others, opposite and same sex, your age, save the red face.

The amazement found in things like a huge tree or a spiders web.

Ignorance and innocences. No money, cars, work, study, commitments, etc etc.

Being able to sleep wherever and whenever it pleases me!

No guilt felt about stupid things like "I shouldn't have eaten those 3 chocolate ice creams" or "I shouldn't have spent that much on that outfit I brought yesturday."

What a beautiful time in our lives!

Save the Planet!

I found this artical in my latest cosmopolitan magazine. I thought I would post it, there's some good idea's. Thanks cosmo xo.

Save the Planet! (no tree-hugging required)
You dont have to wear vegie sandals or go without deodorant to save the planet. Here are somesimple but genius ways to really make a difference...

1. Ban The Junk Mail
Stick a "no junk mail" sign on your letterbox and you'll avoid 1000 pieces of paraphernalia every year. Log onto www.adma.com.au/index.asp?pgid=1999 to reduce unsolicited direct mail.

2. Pour Some Vinegar On It
We don't mean to sound all Womans Weekly, but vinegar is an amazing non-toxic cleaning aid and a great alternative to many chemical agents. Ditch the Toilet Duck and discover how to clean the loo (and much more) at www.versatilevinegar.org.

3. Go Full Frontal
Use a front loading washing machine and you'll save around 70 litres of water per wash compared to a top loader. Reduce costs by using the cold cycle instead of the hot. If you're getting a new machine, check out www.energyrating.gov.au for advice. Also check out the Australian Conservation Foundation website at www.acfonline.org.au.

4.Get Organ-ised
We dont wanna be morbid, but if the unthinkable were to happen and you're on the Organ Donor Register, you could help up to 10 other people. Pick up a registration form at your local Medicare office, phone 1800 777 203 or registar online at www.medicareaustralia.gov.au.

5. Knit a Jumper for a Penguin
The Phillip Island Nature Park in Victoria needs mini ponchos or jumpers for the Little Penguins it rescues from oil spills. The oil interferes with the penguins' natural insulation so if you can purl with panache, get your needles out and cast on to keep those little guys warm. Go to www.penguinfoundation.org.au for info, and download the pattern at www.pedguins.org.au/file/NN_Pollution.pdf.

6. Get you Hound Covered
Take out pet insurance with RSPCA and up to 20 per cent of your premium will go to support their good work. See www.rspcapetinsurance.org.au.

7. Backpack for Charity
For a holiday with a difference, why not apply for one of Mission Australia's Big Six Challenges for 2007? Walk the Inca or the Kokoda Trail, explore the Himalayas or see the Great Wall of China. You pay a $750 registration fee and pledge to raise between $5500 and $7200. See www.inspiredadventures.com.au.

8. Get You Eco News Online
Sign up for a free, up to the minute bulletins at the Environmental News Network website www.enn.com. It'll update you on everything from endangered tigers to climate change.

9. Cut Your Cuppa Consumption
If you're only having one cup of tea, just fill the kettle with as much water as you need. Also, leave your hair until it's 90 percent dry before blasting it with the hair dryer.

10. Don't Eat so Many Chips...
Or other "high embodied energy" foods - that is, those that involve alot of energy and water to produce. Snacks with aluminium lined packaging (peanuts, potato chips, garlic bread), freeze-dried instant coffee and individually wrapped lollies are all culprits.

LOOK WHAT WE FOUND...
Check out www.treehugger.com, an online ecomag with a sense of humour. It's full of helpful tips, comps, products and news.

Artical by Fiona Sandiford.

A Great Aussie Bloke

On Monday when I was at the royal show (like a carnival that's in each state once a year) with my boyfriend. We saw a couple friends there who told us that Steve Irwin had died. I didn't beleive them as their the kind of guys to joke around alot.
"Don't joke about that, I really like him."
"Honestly, we just heard it on the radio on the way here."
They tried to convince me but I couldn't beleive them. I even kept asking BF all day, he couldn't beleive it either. But by the time we got home we had heard it on the radio. That while filming a doco a stingray had peirced his heart.
For days it was all we heard about. TV news, newspapers, radio, there has already been a TV show dedicated to him. And so we hear that it is also everywhere in other places all around the world, esp the UK and USA.

It is such a sad loss for Australia, even the world, and especially his family; his wife and two beautiful children. He is really someone that you couldn't ever imagen dieing that way so young. I still cant beleive it.

The Croc Hunter, Steve Irwin, you will be greatly missed by all who knew you, and those of us who felt like we knew you because you always wore your heart on you sleeve. Thank you for all that you've done and given us.

Blessings to his family and freinds xo

I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair, By Sandi Thom

Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In 77 and 69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late to a world that doesn’t care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

When the head of state didn’t play guitar,
Not everybody drove a car,
When music really mattered and radio was king,
When accountants didn’t have control
And the media couldn’t buy your soul
And computers were still scary and we didn’t know everything

Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In 77 and 69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late to a world that doesn’t care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

When popstars still remained a myth
And ignorance could still be bliss
And when God Save the Queen she turned a whiter shade of pale
When my mom and dad were in their teen
and anarchy was still a dream
and the only way to stay in touch was a letter in the mail

Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In 77 and 69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late to a world that doesn’t care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

When record shops were on top
and vinyl was all that they stocked
and the super info highway was still drifting out in space
kids were wearing hand me downs,
and playing games meant kick arounds
and footballers still had long hair and dirt across their face

Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In 77 and 69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late to a world that doesn’t care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
I was born too late to a world that doesn’t care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

Samhains Question

Samhains said...
post some magick :)some spells of yours or something?are you in a covern? how often do you cast?


Like I said a few blogs ago, I do not cast as much as I would like to at the moment. Usually I do not cast very often anyway. I live in a Catholic house, and I think it would brake my mothers heart if she knew I wasn't one too. I do plan on "coming out of the broom-closet" one day, I'm just not sure when. Mostly I do not cast and do magick. I light two candles every sabbat and one every full moon. I also like to leave an offering like fresh flowers (depending on the sabbat) on my "altar" (my desk!) and meditate when I feel like I need some spiritual guidance.

So I don't perform many spells, my kind of magick might be to carry a red cloth in my pocket if I need strength, or to meditate over a blue candle before bed if I want something particular out of my dreams.

I am not in a coven. I still think of myself as a "newbie" and I'm a bit intimidated by the whole group thing at the moment. It's all very personal for me and at this time in my life I don't really feel the need or want to practice with a group. I am though part of an Adelaide pagan meet-up group. We meet up once a month just for a discussion really (although I haven't been able to make the last two meet-ups :( hopefully the next!).

I hope to do a self-dedication ritual soon. I have been saying that for a little while but I just want to be completely sure. After all it is called a "dedication" ritual. I am still also exploring a few different wiccan "paths". At the moment I'm reading Aradia, Gospel of the Witches.

I hope that is not a disappointing answer. When I find/use something that is really successful I will defiantly post it for you!

My bus ride from city to TAFE

7:59 - Train is late again. Leg it to bus stop W3 but I don't think it was worth it, still waited at least 20 minutes for a bus that was meant to arrive at 8:17.

8:29 - Get on the bus and sit towards the middle on the right hand side. Great, there's Mrs. Porcelain at the front of the bus, facing towards me, again. She is a healthy elderly looking woman whose face looks as if its made from the most delicate china. Her skin looks like it's been pulled back so tight she can't move. I watch her looking out the window and smile at her reflection. I decide it's best to look away now before she catches my glance. Last week she was looking at me everytime I looked up and her porcelain smile is so creepy.

8:32 - I notice the guy sitting in front of Mrs. Porcelain keeps turning to look at the girl across the aisle from him. It's cute how he's trying to be so discrete about checking her out. Wait..Just a second...Is she? Yes, she's doing it to. They are checking each other out. Do they know each other? No, I don't think so. It is like a game of tug-of-war, she looks at him, looks back down, and a few seconds later he looks up at her, and looks back down. Opps, they just caught the other red handed. Feel the tension.

8:34 - Oh no, not again, there she is. To my left, one row in front. There's Miss Pic-A-Nit, reading her book. Or probably pretending to read it, she is more worried about her hair, she is like obsessive compulsive about it. Yep, there she goes. Reaching up for her hair, it starts of as just rearranging a couple of strands, but when she starts that she feels around some more and notices that it needs a bit more fixing (apparently). Oh no, what the hell! She thinks and goes for the whole thing. She pulls her 80's style scrunchy out and runs her fingers through the length of her her, finaly twisting it into a bun placed randomly on the top of her head. Finished. No, not quiet. Up goes her hand, to her head again. What now? Oh ok, she's just adjusting her cap. Back to the book. Not back to your hair again? It looks fine! Just leave it! Seriously you are probably just making it worse. Chances are if it looked fine when you did your hair in front of the mirror this morning it probably still did. No don't take the bloody scrunchy out again! Just leave it! *%#@ @!&? I can't watch this anymore!

8:35 - Stop H1, time for Bestfreind 1 to get on. On she gets and looks around for best freind 2. Ah, there she is! Her eyes light up as she smiles and says "Hi". (Well, I guess that's what she is saying, I cannot speak any Asian languages.) I like when B1 gets on the bus and meets B2, I like listening to them talk in their language. I don't feel like I'm eavesdropping either.

8:40 - Here comes stop 4. Who will be the first to hit the next stop button? I've noticed more TAFE students than usual on the bus today, and it almost seems like a race between us everytime the bus passes stop 4. Here it comes, six arms raised ready to hit the button...DING. The next stop sign is flashing. It was me today. Maybe next week kids.

8:41 - Stop 5. Here comes another week of TAFE...

Faker

I have times when I will get really into something. I will research it and study it and get excited about it, it will be all I think about. Then, after a while, I have a nasty habbit of getting over it. I will just forget about it and a year or so later I'll think "whatever happened with that?"

I started getting into wicca/paganism etc when I was about 14. I read a couple books and thought it sounded great. I performed a ritual even. Then just kinda forgot about it. For a few years I barely even thought of it, it wasn't until the start of this year that it came back to me. I am a lot more serious about it now. It use to be something that just sounded good, but I never thought it could be real. Now I know that it is a way of life, it is as real as I make it. I know it's right for me. I am already committed. Well, not in a formally announced sense, I have not done a dedication ritual yet. But I've told my boyfriend, thinking of how I should tell my mum, etc. It's a part of who I am now.

The past few weeks, well lets just say I haven't felt myself in all aspects of my life. I guess it's just a busy time of year. There's been so much stuff going on, that I haven't had time to do half the things I usually do. Now I feel really guilty bcoz I haven't even touched on my spirituality for a while. Haven't done any research, haven't written in my BOS, haven't done a ritual, lit a candle, meditated; or anything. I feel like a rip of wiccan, a fake wiccan, like I'm pretending.

Am I just lazy?

I have always thought that I would always be a solitary pagan. Spirituality is such a personal thing for me, and I think everyone has their own belief's and their own way of expressing those. Now I'm starting to think I need a coven to keep me on track. I almost find myself wishing we had a hierarchy (yes, you can slap me later if you wish).

Anyway, the point of the story is sometimes (well this is the first time really) I feel like a fake. I feel ashamed for all those other pagans who are so dedicated everyday. I feel like I don't deserve to call myself a wiccan or a pagan.

Does anyone else ever go through this? How did you feel?

Has everyone been slack lately?

So I haven't written a proper entry in ages, so I think it may be about time I did. I have been so neglectful to my poor old blog lately :(

Obviously I started TAFE a month or so ago, so that has been taking up some time. I am really enjoying it, although I already sometimes feel like I'm falling behind. I have met some pretty cool people there, they're really nice. There is one girl though that reminds me of a girl from high school that I really hated. She was one of those girls who really thought she was all that, and this girl at Tafe has the same voice, the same build, everything except a different colour hair. She winges so much...it drives me INSANE when she sits behind me in our Presentation Drawings class. Sometimes I just want to turn around and slap her!!! Anyway, other than that they all seem okay.

Work-don't even get me started. I don't get enough hours as it is, and last week I wasn't rostered on at all! Not one shift! Bloody hell!!!! One of the girls I work with was going away to Queensland at the end of the week, so she asked for a few extra shifts so she could have a bit of extra pocket money to go away with. And our idiot manager gave her ALL the shifts! I was so peeved off, although he did give me one last minute shift on Monday, but still, I'll have no pay this week. I'm going to work tomorrow and I'm gonna get as many hours in as I can.

So when I havn't been at TAFE, work or at home (trying to) study, I've mostly been with that gorgeous BoyFriend of mine. I've been spending about three nights a week at his place, and I really love it, but I must admit that I've felt a bit, hmm, whats the word? I've almost been stressing out a bit because I haven't been home, haven't seen my family much, haven't been able to keep up with my washing and cleaning. Like I was saying to BF, it will be so much better when we are living together, because all the things that will be in the back of my mind I will be able to do when we're together because...duh, we'll both be living in the same house. I so cannot wait for that day. I hate to sound so corny, but he really is the most fantastic BF ever.

My girlfreinds and I have started a weekly ritual. Every Friday night for the past four or five weeks we've been going to the Vic, a local night club. It has been really awesum having something to look forward to at the end of the week and being able to catch up with all the girls.

Well, off I go to watch The Office. Dont you love the office? Its so funny!

Peace out xo

PS Where is everyone else? Esp u Neo-Pagan Moments of Clarity, you haven't written since the cone of power!!!!

Here I Am!

Hey! Geeze, it's been 3 weeks! Just a quick note to let you know that no, I'm not dead!

Sorry I've been so slack. Heaps of stuff has been going on. I dont really feel like myself at the moment because I havn't really had much time to do the things I normally do. Anyway, I promise that I will be back soon to write a long and interesting entry.

Until then I've got to go finish an assinment (yep, it's only week 3 and I'm already losing track!).

Peace out xo